Windows, lucidity and inner truth


Windows have been in my thoughts lately; there are many sayings and thoughts expressed about windows. I was contemplating and thinking about some advice I got from an Ancient Chinese divination method I use as a learning tool. It became clear after a couple of days and the events of the last couple of days that a window was the answer to the answer or how I may learn and become more “enlightened” so to speak. Our eyes are our windows! Open the blinds open the curtains and let the light shine in. 

enlightened (ɪnˈlaɪt ə nd)

— adj
1. factually well-informed, tolerant of alternative opinions, and guided by rational thought: an enlightened administration ; enlightened self-interest
2. privy to or claiming a sense of spiritual or religious revelation of truth: the search for an enlightened spiritual master

The passage or verse I had drawn was quite inspirational, and over a couple of days it took a new form and meaning for me on a personal level.

“If we wish to enlighten someone we must first begin with what is lucid then the light may enter from which we may learn.”

I have been doing much inner work over the last seven or so years of my life, in order to learn who I am, as well as my purpose for being here. We all I would think at times ask the question of ourselves what am I here for or what is this what life is really about why do they have that and I have this?

The Gurus and religious institutions all share answers, there are many who say that we have the answers within us, to those questions and many more we may find ourselves asking. As I observed my thoughts and reflected on my life in the spirit of the verse I had drawn I pondered the relevance. The only one I wish to enlighten is me why did I draw this and how is it relevant? Windows are the portals or the link to our teachers. I was being inspired to open my eyes and let the light shine in.

Windows… The window is lucid; transparent the light shines through the window. What is outside of the window? The teachers that share with us the knowledge of how to find the answers within, nature, people, our earth, our universe etc. the light from which we may learn teachers are what is outside the window. We all have our own perspectives and truths those are contained within us and found as we learn from our teachers as we ask the questions of our teachers and receive answers we in turn begin to learn and find our own truths. Some answers we get we just know are wrong at least for us, many of those answers for me have been given by religious institutions. I also would say many of those answers were given or as is often the case avoided by my family and friends.” Why? Because I said so that’s why” is an awesome example of avoidance shared by my parents. Those kinds of answers are in a way the best as they allow me to find my own inner truth without their influence. Perhaps they don’t know why and that was the answer my grandparents gave them… I chose to find an answer rather than avoid the question or discomfort the answer may bring.

The eyes are the windows of the soul… Yes I am inclined to believe that, they allow us to see into the world and universe in a very beautiful way letting the light shine in. Like a window you can see out of them and inside of them. Seeing inside of the window those teachers taught me to look within and find the answers to the questions I would ask. Looking inside myself I have been finding the answers to the questions I have been asking. I close my eyes and see inside much like when I shut the blinds and close the drapes I see inside my house. The light inside shines, when I light the lantern, or turn on the lights, much like when I embrace the lessons and then know my answers. I find my inner truth when I close my eyes and meditate that light then shines down and radiates it energy through my being.

Windows… What a beautiful creation, what do you see outside when you look through the window? What do you see when the curtains are drawn? What do others see when they look in your windows? I see a beautiful human being!!! Thank you all for being you, I hope you take the time to appreciate the beauty and the lessons we may learn from our teachers on the other side of the window. Both side of the window lead us to the light from which we may learn.

Thank you for allowing me to share a thought or two, I realize that some of the things I share are just to get out what I have learned or gleaned through personal experiences. I suppose I do so in hopes that it will help someone in some way or perhaps just to bring a smile to someone that may need one. I would say that at times I share what I do to inspire thought and self reflection in order to help make our world a better place for all we share it with.

Thank you for being you and making our world a better place by sharing your love and your smiles making it a better place for all we share it with.  I hope you take the time to enjoy both sides of the window!

The most beautiful act of love I have seen today!


I love all of those in this world that share and love in so many ways… I bet tears roll down your cheeks as you smile and feel the love!!!! Thank you for being you and loving our fellow human beings… I love you all!


Thank you for sharing your love and making our world a better place for all we share it with!

Me, “The Way ” Gaza, Israel, and Desmund Tutu

There are times when I question myself as far as what my place is in regards to causes and the injustices in our world. I empathize with the young Buddha as he explored the world outside his palace for the first time as a young child. He saw the plows opening the earth and was amazed with what he saw, he saw mother earth being cut open and violated. He saw the poor and the helpless all the while questioning why and how or what he could or should do about it. I am of course not Buddha I am a spiritual being living as a simple man.

I have been studying so many different spiritual perspectives shared by so many spiritual beings past and present as well as the laws that govern our Universe as the great Lau Tzu or Buddha may have expressed it “The Way or the Tao” as a more modern perspective it may be the” Law of Attraction or Physics” Metaphysics as it were covers all of it. Buddha knew the laws as did Jesus well enough to alter the path of mankind perhaps even enough to change the immediate environment yet they could not change the laws themselves. The laws are what they are Universal and not alterable they may be understood and embraced as well as leveraged yet they are not alterable by man as that is the way.

I wonder at times what I may do with the knowledge and understanding I have of those laws in order to serve the higher good. I can not change the world and embracing negative energy only brings more negative energy. I can change my thoughts and feelings in regards to me and my situation yet the thoughts and feelings of my fellow spiritual beings in their human forms are not mine to control. I have spent a great amount of time learning to change and be in line with my greater self or spiritual self and know it is my place to walk in the middle with love and compassion and empathy yet in joy as for the gift given me to live and enjoy my human form.

I will say that for me as a human being it is at times hard to walk the” Path of Mean “not choosing to embrace the negative aspects of being a human. One of my heros shared a quote we may all learn from “When we choose to hate our oppressors we become like them” Desmond Tutu speaking in reference to Apartheid and the murder and torture of the humans of color in South Africa.

Today I was quite frankly proud in a way to see a protest in the city I live in Salt Lake City Utah is a predominantly right wing religious city in a religious state. I have never seen a protest like the one I saw today on State Street in the middle of downtown. It is not that there are no protests here it was the kind of protest. It was a protest against the conflict in Gaza and Palestine, I would have actually participated if it was for peace yet as I heard the chants of end the Apartheid in Palestine and the negative aspects of the crowd it reminded me of the words spoken by one of those most responsible for the end of Apartheid.


The Jewish people have endured much as a people, so have the Arabs the Palestinians the Jewish side seems to have become very hateful and the oppression of the peoples of Gaza is reminiscent to me of the Nazi treatment of the Jews. Like the Jews in Nazi Germany the Palestinians have been herded into a small area and controlled in every way concentrated so to speak so they can be punished at will, even exterminated if that would serve the purpose of the Israeli Government. The Palestinian side seems to be just as hateful much like the Jewish people were when Hitler rounded them up and concentrated them in areas to be controlled and punished at will even exterminated if it would serve the purpose of the Nazi Government.
A perpetual loop, until someone breaks the cycle how many women and children have to be killed before we as human beings find our spiritual beings and break the cycle? How many times is Hamas going to show up at a gunfight with a pocket knife before they come to their senses and extend a hand of love.. How many times is Israel going to swat a fly with a howitzer before they say “we love you quit with the pocket knife lets be friends there has been enough killing on our planet especially of our wives and children.” How much more will it take before the world says enough… and stops giving Israel the howitzers if they are going to swat flies with them? It is almost surreal to say you are defending your country and attacking with an army a country that has no army… Reminds me of another situation my country was involved in based on lies and a war fought in our defense with a country that couldn’t even attack our country if they wanted to.. Not one jet, not one tank, not one missile could they have hit us with… Now I am trying to stop a T rex with a bb gun.. 🙂

Any way the hate has to stop and the negative has to be transmuted or it will be a never ending loop.. That is the law of the Universe… The other alternative is for the human beings of this planet to consciously and spiritually offset and even more so drown the negative with such love and compassion that the Universe transmutes it and breaks the loop, which would take many of us more than four billion, could turn the tide.

Kudos to those that protested in Salt Lake City today, I would have joined you if your message had been of love and peace… I am however proud you put yourselves out there for your cause.


Thank you all for allowing me to share some thoughts on a subject that is hard to swallow.. I will never understand the killing of human beings by human beings, I may have to accept it yet I will walk the path of mean and say it is not the way!

Thank you for being you and being the change our world so needs by sharing your love and your smiles making our world a better place for all we share it with.. 
Namaste with love

Ancient wisdom shared… from the Doctorine of the Mean

The Grandson of Confucius comments on the “Way” and Human Nature.

“Therefore, the superior man cultivates a friendly harmony, without being weak.– How firm is he in his energy! He stands erect in the middle, without inclining to either side.– How firm is he in his energy! When good principles prevail in the government of his country, he does not change from what he was in retirement.– How firm is he in his energy! When bad principles prevail in the country, he maintains his course to death without changing.– How firm is he in his energy!

From the 中 庸 Zhongyong


I wanted to share a bit of what I have been learning and studying for the last seven years. I shared this in a spiritual group discussion on LinkedIn about love, not religion,  not philosophy from the heart love of all that exists no matter what is going on around a person. We can be true to who we are when we stand in the middle as who we are we can be the love we are meant to be.

Thank you all for being you and for being the change positive our world so needs, thank you for sharing your love and your smiles making our world a better place for all we share it with!



Has Christianity helped mankind to become better human beings? Would Jesus be a Christian?

I have been seeing quite a few posts shared both on blogs and social media sites that have inspired me to ask what my thoughts and feelings are as far as some of the major issues with religions. I saw the same post three times in the last two days and was recently answering questions on an online dating site that really made me stop and think. Much like a conversation with Plato would have caused the same introspection and observation of thought to come up with my own view and perspective.

Jesus… Wasn’t a Christian
Mohammed …. Wasn’t a Muslim
Buddha … Wasn’t a Buddhist

The question asked on the dating site; “Over all do you think Christianity has helped make mankind become better human beings?”

The question provoked some interesting thoughts and observations and in a way the post about the inspirational beings that the largest religious movements and religions kind of put the exclamation point on the end of the train of thoughts. Many may disagree and I am not by any means trying to bash, or dispute any ones beliefs or the right to believe as one chooses. I would rather applaud you all for your conviction and faith in your chosen religions and faiths. I am quite spiritual and have a love for all humanity, religions, faiths, philosophies, creeds and I would add races yet have to say there is only one human race. We collectively are the entire human race! Colors of skin? Yes there are different colors of skin, as there are many diverse cultures and many different perspectives on our planet.

As I searched my thoughts and feelings over the last few days I have made several observations that I would share. I am not proclaiming them as truth or not truth yet as I sift through the various perspectives and stories throughout history since the beginning of “Christianity” I have to wonder on a whole has Christianity made a positive impact on mankind. The same may be asked of the Muslim faith and the impact it has had and is having on mankind.

Jesus Christ was not a Christian as Christianity did not exist while he was alive, nor did he tote a Bible and preach from it. The Bible as we know it didn’t exist yet the books of the Old Testament did, to my knowledge however he didn’t tote those around and preach from them either. He walked his walk and talked his talk by setting an example for mankind to follow. He turned the other cheek fed the hungry taught men to fish healed the sick and shared his love. He asked us human beings to look inside who we are and treat others with respect love and dignity as we all would like to be treated. He asked that we walk in peace and not to throw stones or to judge others. He never as far as I know told his apostles to go out and through power and might convert and control their fellow man and make them become “Christians”. His way was one of freedom of choice and asking us to look within and be loving beautiful human beings to help one another and forgive if one was wronged by another to share with each other the goodness of life and what the world we stand on has to offer.

I ponder the question of Christianity and has it helped mankind become better human beings? As I look at the history of this religion and the walk it has walked. The cultures it has destroyed the masses that have been killed in the name of “Christ” and there have been many. The Europeans that were tortured and controlled forced to submit to the “will of God”, the Pagans, the Wiccans, the many other cultures and societies that either became Christian or were cleansed by torture or fire. The Indian tribes of South America and North America the “Heathens” that were either exterminated or forced to become civilized “God Fearing Christians” the French and Spanish Inquisitions, the Holy Wars. Even in today’s society the examples I see of extravagant Cathedrals and Temples, churches and those elevating themselves to “Saint” status as they walk pass the starving, the homeless and the ill.

If Jesus was about free will and caring for all humanity and all of creation, acceptance, tolerance, compassion and empathy for others as well as one hundred percent non violent would he even be a Christian? How would he feel about the honor of this tribute to him the religions of Christianity? I am not going to say that there have not been many, many human beings throughout the history of Christianity that have in fact led by example and walked the walk. I am saying however that when I look at the big picture of human beings that call themselves Christians it would appear that they worship a book turn a blind eye and exert control over others by the might of their religious masses and have not apparently gotten the message that Jesus delivered.

I am not sure I have the answer to the question yet it has brought me to another question… Would Jesus be a Christian?

Thank you for allowing me to share a few thoughts and perhaps inspire you to share a few thoughts as I would truly like to have a better answer than I have come to. I am leaning towards a mixed response with no clear cut answer even in my own truth. I suppose that is what acceptance is I accept that it is what it is with all of my love unconditional. There has been much good from the religions of Christianity and much that I would consider not so good. I do know that every man woman and child tortured and killed to establish and create this thing we know as Christianity would bring many tears to the eyes of the one they say is the inspiration behind it. What do you think?

Thank you for being you and sharing your love and smiles making our world a better place for all we share it with.


When I left the cave… A poem



<a href=”; title=”Keshcorran caves”>Keshcorran caves</a> by Jon Sullivan

When I stepped out of the cave
Fear no longer did I have of the grave
Loving and living was all I did crave

Out of the darkness light I did see
Truly knowing and being free
The divine love emanating from the heart of me

Thoughts chosen with love and care
Seeing the beauty of all things everywhere
God’s creations for all to share

Every flower every tree
Created with love for you and me
Our souls infinite loved unconditionally

When out of the cave I saw the stream
I stood in awe at what I had seen
Life in abundance shared with everything

The stream it flowed through sands and time
Carrying love and the light divine
Beyond my imagination beyond my simple mind

Every thought chosen with care
Not embracing the feeling in the cave of despair
Breathing in love with every breath of air

The cave of darkness where I used to stand
Ignorant just being a simple man
Now knowing that is what I am

I am nothing yet there is a part of me
A part that is one of divinity
The particle of my maker his gift you see

I am what I was created to be
An extension of God as God created me
To expand in love and beauty for eternity

Contrast in the painting of expression so diverse
Dwelling in the darkness of the cave first
Another brush stroke among the many
On the canvas we call our universe

When we leave the cave and walk hand in hand
Singing from our hearts the song of man
We will be in line with Gods plan

Waltzing through the heavens we human beings
On a beam of light as the Angels sing
God will be smiling when we walk out of the cave
And share our love unconditional for everything
Especially for each other us human beings

Thank you for allowing me to share a thought or two… Thank you as well for being you and being the positive change our world so needs~! :0





Reinvention of me or aligning with my inner being?

Today I was paid an incredible compliment by a respected friend that caused me to not only smile and say thank you it caused me to ask myself a few questions. Re invention or alignment was the first question I had to ask after the initial smile. The second question was what did I really feel about the compliment and why?

After participating in the Veterans Writing group I co mentor the facilitator and sponsor at the V.A. Hospital, Mike Scott surprised me with a few thoughts he shared. He looked at me and said thank you for participating and being a part of the writing group as both a writer and a mentor. Then he expressed his admiration for my ability and the amazing way I have re invented myself. From carpenter to intellectual, and future life coach, NLP practitioner and public speaker as well as aspiring to spiritual mastery and being an inspirational being.

In the three years since Mike read one of my poems and asked me to be in his writing group he mentioned how much he has seen me grow and change. He was quite impressed with my progress and quite inspired and moved by my adaptability and my transformation especially in my spiritual presence. He asked if I would be interested in a position or would consider being a volunteer in the peer to peer counseling group. The compliments and the offers made me feel good! I know I am on the path I am supposed to be on and where I am supposed to be at this moment in my journey. Good things are happening and better things are yet to come as I assist and give service to my fellow human beings with love from my heart.

Did I re invent myself? I have had several comments on some of my blog posts that expressed the same sentiment. I have to say that I don’t know that that is the case; I am more inclined to say I have become more in line with who I am. The person I am and was meant to be as I came here in this physical form. Since my youth I have had the desire to express myself in an artistic way through poetry and visual art as well as verbally although in my younger years in a very direct and blunt way.

I have always had the desire to be me yet the influences of the world had the effect that peer pressure has on an individual and through fear limited my true expression of self both intellectually and spiritually. How many 9 year olds read Emerson or Thoreau… How many boys enjoyed or had even heard of Emily Dickinson let alone understood the depth of her soul in her expression of thoughts poetically? (She was a loner and rarely left her room) I was the one that walked to the beat of a different drum and rather than be the odd ball I conformed to society and family pressures.

As my former life crumbled and I spent more time in solitude I began to align with and find my inner being. To know and embrace my inner truth, the years of being a craftsman are a cherished gift yet as a young man my dreams were of a higher calling. I was a gifted and intelligent child with no means, from a family of little wealth and a formal education was beyond reach.

I have found that over the years my inner self has been calling me to align and be who I am rather than continue living in fear and succumbing to the expectations of others. Family was one of those that I was trying to live up the expectations of has seen the same change as my friend Mike and now supports and embraces the change and transformation I am going through. They know that the trying times I have been through over the last seven years, has been a good thing even though from the outside perspective seems to have been otherwise. My 100,000 $ + a year job gone and left behind for an uncertain future, my countless hours of study and research as well as the many hours, days , months and years of solitude to find and know “who and what I am”. Have been harder for them at times than it has been for me, yet I am lining up with who I am and what I came to do.

I am here to be a part of and add depth to the evolution of Consciousness and the greater mass conscious awareness of humanity. To help others align with their inner being and inspire them to become consciously aware of who they are and to express their individual and diverse perspectives and add to that mass consciousness.

I admire and embrace the concept that we in our own time have an obligation to contribute to the evolution of humanity in a positive and meaningful way. It is in our reach to become a better human race than we were yesterday and even more so than we were 2000+ years ago in the time of Jesus of Nazareth, and even more so than 3000 years ago in the time of the Greek philosophers and 5000 years ago in the time of Buddha or the times of the beginnings of the Hindu societies and the Great Ganesh. We have all the history and wisdom of the ancients to draw upon and create a better humanity and paint a picture of such beauty and grace that the ancients would be proud of what we create with the loving wisdom they left us to work with.

The first steps to doing so are to become consciously aware of who we are and align with our inner beings or higher selves and make those changes. It doesn’t require anything more than the desire and love of ourselves to do so and the willingness and effort to do so. For me it has taken seven years to unlearn what a lifetime taught me about living for the expectations of others and being afraid to be me.

I wanted to express my thoughts at the request of a friend that asked me to write a post from my heart that was inspiring and would help her find her “backbone” I would like to say we all have the capacity to change that process starts within, while you are there first find who you really are and want to be then know you can do it and do it even if the rest of the world seems to not understand at some point they will step back and say… I am in awe and admire you for re inventing yourself.. You can smile and say no I just lined up with who I am and who I was meant to be.. I am finally becoming me! 

Thank you for being you and being the change positive our world so needs by sharing your love and your smiles making our world a better place for all we share it with