As I heal after the bleeding has finally stopped it has been a gift to share and exchange thoughts with many friends and it is a greater gift to express some of those thoughts artistically with some friends especially in a collaborative effort. This collaboration with a fellow blogger and a great friend I share although somewhat more prose than poetry I share it as a poetic expression of the conversations I have shared with my friend as he has given me support and encouragement during the healing process of a wound that has bled for many years. Thank you CK for your support friendship and love!
The Deeper Love
Why did you leave me?
Why didn’t you love me as I needed you to?
I knew unconditional love,
your actions taught me conditions,
you abandon me, you didn’t protect me,
I now am searching outside myself for answers to why..
Left with no answers deep down inside.
As time went by and I grew
The love of me I never knew
The years went by many tears I cried
Wondering always each day that wen by
What was so bad that I did
That you walked away from your kid
All my love was there for you,
Was it not enough to make you true,
I felt the burn deep down inside as though something
Was taken from me with no reasons why.
Knowing the sadness of what I felt I knew inside, the
Painfully looking out the window I would cry.
Growing into this man I would be
Lonely and angered disaster for all to see.
As the years went by the day was buried in my mind
True destruction came as the pain was never left behind
Whiskey, women, drugs, beer and wine in comfort sought
None could undo the damage of the buried thought
As I lost everything more pain and sorrow did it bring
Felt at a loss not knowing as my heart screamed
Lonely and hurt only nightmares instead of dreams
My soul came through to heal all of these violent things,
With love it do so, it did so deep,
No places inside do my dreams await.
I know the pain of what it meant to carry,
It was finally a release I had to give and it was scary.
I can now love inside of the dream that was always hidden
I know this is the path of a deeper love I was given.
As silence surrounded me alone I found me
The prison I was living in a gift you see
Deep in the darkness a gift of light and a dream
Perceived twisted reality no more did it scream
The depth of love so far below buried now exposed
In the light of my beautiful heart it now glows
No longer bound by the painful prison
The deepest most beautiful love I have been given
By Clark Kent and Joe B.
I thank you for allowing me to share some thoughts as I heal and reach for the stars, I hope we can all find inside the gifts from our wounds stop the bleeding and heal. It is that deeper love that shows us the true beauty of who we are individually and collectively Please share a smile share your love and help make our world a better place for all we share it with.