Today as I sit home from work due to my injury, the doctor said I can lift two pounds up to ten times an hour. What a restriction, as a carpenter the hammer I have alone is a pound not to mention the materials are heavy. I accept and understand that I need to heal and doing my normal routine will not allow that.
I reflect on that acceptance and realize the most harmful energy in my life is that of my childhood and the man I know as my Father. It is almost surreal the feelings I have as I share these thoughts. My father left when I was seven or so. He and my mother got divorced and I never saw or heard from him again.
I spent many years trying to understand and believe that he loved me and my siblings. It was a very painful feeling my whole life that he had abandoned us. I know he did what he had to do; today I truly accept and forgive.
I would if given the opportunity and could talk with him have only a few words to say. The first is I am sorry for the years of pain we endured. I would then say I forgive him. Then I would hug him and say I love him. The past is finally gone I have from my heart forgiven and love the man who shaped my life in such a painful way. I know he did his best and I must do mine, I love you father of mine wherever you are. Thank you for the love and the lessons.
. We all have many painful memories; I hope we can all find the love at the end of the day. Forgiveness and love are the keys to healing; it is better when you can share that with the ones that the memories are shared with. I have no way of finding my father and no way to share my feelings with him. So I share with the world my love and forgiveness in hopes that he may feel my heart and soul bringing peace to his own.
I thank you for allowing me to share some thoughts and perhaps a smile. I am grateful for the many that take time to share and read my words and my heart. I hope we can all share a smile and some love being the change positive and helping pour world become a better place for all that we share it with.