A question and depth… Perfect?


I have to take the time to ask a question of my heart and as I ask the question I know the answer. Many people especially it seems younger people have adopted this philosophy of you are a perfect you. Or the you are perfect the way you are.

My stepson called about a family issue to comfort me and stroke me because he sensed I was beating myself up over recent events in my life. He expressed all the good that he had witnessed lived and learned in my presence. I agree with much of what he had to say. I did however express that there was room for improvement and I recognized a character flaw or two that I passed on to my children and I need to do the soul work to fix them.

The exploration of ones depths to find and repair a flaw is not the same thing as a pity party or a self-defeating ego trip. It is having the courage to find the light of truth in your heart recognizing that truth and working on converting the truth into positive change within. The attitude and purpose set the loving tone taking the negative and finding the source then loving it and thanking it.

I have been battling my ego with love and trying to win a war in which I may be wrong. I have been reading and researching learning from the masters. Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. is one of many that have opened my eyes in a new way asking me to find my truth. His thoughts on ego and soul were that we needed to find balance. A different approach may be required and in my heart the thought has weight. Ego free would mean that you in some ways may be a sitting duck, or would it?

I would like to thank you for your allowing me to share my thoughts and feelings with you. I hope some at least got a smile and perhaps a challenge question. Are you a perfect you? I believe that sugar coating is harmful to both our soul and ego. The truth is far more rewarding and educational providing knowledge leading to wisdom. I for one know that I appreciate the opportunity to learn and make change positive. Work on the problem and fix it rather than sweep it under the rug till the rug is as tall as you. The answer is deep within and the light of love will guide you. I am grateful to my lord and his grace allowing me the many gifts of many experiences in life.

Thank you, I hope we can all share a smile share some love and make our world a better place for all that share it. Please be the change positive!

A dreaded phone call… My son


As a parent there are a few phone calls you dread to get and with me when my former wife calls I am usually quite hesitant to take the call. Let it go to voice mail and call after you know what the issue is. I answered a call a while ago thinking it was my son. My children live 2200 miles away and any time I can chat with them is precious.

The voice that responded to “What’s up Sprout” was not my sons. The voice was sad and trembling as it replied “It’s not Jake it’s me”. My heart stopped as I wondered what happened to one or both of my kids. Jake is in Jail she proceeded to tell me and then the reason that followed has brought many mixed feelings to my heart mind and soul.

He is accused of robbery with his “two best friends”. I know my son knows right from wrong and that he is responsible for his actions. As a dad my first thoughts and feelings are of sorrow then guilt. Then an overwhelming feeling that I love my son. I am moved to wonder what caused his desperation and what were the circumstances that lead to this unfortunate bad and dark choice.

I won’t hold myself accountable for his actions. I do wish and accept responsibility for not finding a way to get him to share his thoughts emotions and feelings with me more often. There had to be a way. I am somewhat in shock at the recent turns and events in my life in the last month or so. So much hurt and pain forcing me to purge my soul and find the inner strength and courage to persevere and learn from these hurts and pains my mistakes and make them strengths.

I hope by sharing my thoughts and feelings in such a way that myself expression may help myself and perhaps another. I reach to the depths of my being and look for the comfort lessons and knowledge that I may have power over my thoughts, emotions and feelings through conscious effort and with a loving embrace of consciousness. The conscious soul has a responsibility to its self and to its fellow souls. I melt the coldness and the heat of a cold angry heart with love and wisdom.

Thank you for allowing me to share some of my thoughts and perhaps a smile as I share that even the worst of times allow for growth and wisdom. I ask my maker to look after my son and the lady that chose to leave they both need comfort as much as I. I ask forgiveness and love for all that need it and we all do. I hope we can all share a smile and some love making our world a better place for all that share it with us. Even when we get that dreaded phone call. Thank you again.

A new day


Dark and bright the red orange rays the dawning of a new day

The mountains rugged tall and inviting seaming to say

 

It will all be okay hold up your head with courage embrace you heart with love

You have friends up above, in heaven there is no pain on this day there will be no rain

 

The bright start of a new day the light of love shows the way, the love of my Lord is here to stay

 

I thank you for allowing me to share my thoughts with you. There are so many Beautiful souls that share on here and I am ever so grateful for the opportunity to share and have you share. We are blessed and I am honored top be a part of the changes in our world and observe the evolution and enlightenment of men.

I hope you all have a great day and may take the time to share a smile and some love with those around you. Be the change positive and help make our world a better place for all that we share it with. Thank you again!