From the Beast to Beauty… Fitting on Halloween.

Darkness surrounded him once more, except for the light shining in his core, Watching and with worry and stifled cry’s the despair and sadness clouding his eye’s. Swimming in sorrow filled with thoughts far and wide, dreaming of the one I wished by my side.

Threatened with violent acts of lost freedom and cruel treatment in the air hiding another’s, despair my treatment, of her like as Queen in my heart it always has been from the start. Now though my world is torn apart I still live and love from my heart’ we made some mistakes yet we did many great things.

I am kneeling and learning the depth of humility the love my Lord shares with me. While I learn to feel his love I wish to share with another how wrong I was. Acceptance and love of everything especially the love our children bring.

The truth of the matter as I have learned the respect of our children varies in style yet the love we share with them crosses the miles. I would like to surround myself with the ones that I love even though I never treated them with kid gloves. In my heart I was treating them with another form of love.

I wait for direction and the time to be right as I walk with the master and learn a new way every morning I start a new day. I know not what will happen, I feel his embrace putting a smile on my weathered face one that for so long has been there that the crow’s feet of a billion smiles at the top of my cheeks, I hope it stays there for many weeks.

I am not ready to move on from her love, I ask for the help from heaven above to lessen the pain as I walk away.  Looking for true love is part of my path, something I thought I already had, wondering how it all went so bad. It has been said it’s not as bad as it seems. I suppose they have never had to walk away from a dream one where you would risk everything.

I thank my Lord and my Maker for sharing with me the love of the spirit that feeds my soul as I give up control. The Lord is the master of my soul I owe him my life and thank him so I am Grateful Lord for your love and faith in this simple spec in the Universe of life.

 My love makes a difference to all that I touch a gift of love and trust a powerful gift I respect and have been humbled by again I am grateful and sincere. Thank you my Maker and lord who is Just for your mercy and grace the love that you share. For all that seek to find the light of love a gift from our maker above the gift of dark and light love the tempering of the soul.

I take a ride not behind the wheel learning to enjoy the sights and enjoy the moment, I don’t have that many left, I want to make them my very best. Sharing love with all I meet and perhaps on the way, my true love will find me and stay.

Thank you for allowing me to share my thoughts and express myself. I am grateful for all those that share with me here and throughout our world in many ways. I am most honored to be a part of our changing world and hope to be a force of love helping make positive change along with the many others that have chosen to reach for the light and making life better for all we share with. Love is the most powerful force in the Universe it heals and creates Beauty in all that surrounds us. Good and bad if it comes from your heart there is a lesson there. I hope we can all share a smile and some love. Express yourself and make the change positive and helping our world become a better place for all we share it with. Thank you again.

Running away isn’t our style… A poem

Waiting in silence for you to speak your mind

Sort of like prison for my own wondering why I am all alone

I understand you need some time To see what in your heart you find

Until then I wait by the phone wondering if you will ever come home


I sit in silence all alone wondering if you will ever come home

If you should walk through the door I would just hug you and smile

Joking I would ask what took you so long

The past is behind us our moment is now let’s do it together we know it’s worthwhile

Running away isn’t our style


I would give you a hug and smile not to discuss the trouble we had

No more ever with you I would say anything other than I love you very berry much

I am glad you are here our positive moments are so beautiful not as Beautiful as you

As You smile and say” You’re so sweet my love and I am berry, berry much too

We are not perfect yet our love is quite true. Let’s move forward positive we two

Running away isn’t for me or for you

Thank you for allowing me to share some thoughts expressed with some mediocre poetry. I hope you all share a smile share your love and be the change positive and help make our world a better place for all that share it with us. Thank you aging!

Monks, Failure, and hugs…?

I started my day Friday feeling a great burst of spiritual energy and as I sat in the lunch room waiting for time to start working. There were several of us present and I had mentioned that I should go to Tibet and become a monk. Every time I open my mouth I drive away those I love most and that mean the most to me. They all laughed at that saying I would most certainly fail.

I Laughed and said they were right. Some of us were meant to be monks I suppose as some are born to be President or whatever they choose on the path they choose to be on. I almost would Question the reason monks do what they do. I admire the ability to devote ones life in such a way yet wonder if they are not squandering a gift.

My heart felt thought is that we are all similar and have many of the same similar thoughts and feelings. Wouldn’t it be nice to have a hug once in a while? What about a conversation outside of one with the divine? Our gift as human beings is that of touch communication smell sight etc. The gifts of physical life why waste them? I would think it more respectful and more fulfilling to live and share both the experiences and love with another and your fellow man.

I wish to share my favorite Quote with you,

“I can’t Wait to hug the stuffins out of you”  VR

It is my favorite because I waited 44 years for someone to say that to me. It is a shame so much of my life went by before I felt that wanted feeling. That was one of the most beautiful feelings I have ever felt. Thank you!

My thanks to all of you for allowing me to share my thoughts and I hope we can all be the change positive and share. Share a smile and share your love making our world a better place for all that share it with us. Thank you again for being the change positive and share a hug if you can

Children are worth our inspiration… They are important for changing our world.

Children are one of my most inspirational influences and should probably be my first. My relationship with children varies with my closeness and knowledge of them. The closer they are to my heart the more inspirational they become in my life. Both dark and light show when dealing with teen girls especially although to admit as I write my inner truth I have the same with boys.

I have at the moment a renewed outlook that I am over the hurdle. In the past I have pretty much had the attitude of the old baseball coach or the dance teacher or perhaps even my old nemesis the math teacher if you will. I care about the child so I push them to win, I push hard and expect much. I push too hard and expect too much. I produce winners as far as school and basic survival yet I fail as with my children to respect myself as well as them. I know better and feel it is important to listen to children and young adults respectfully. A lesson learned before and although to a much lessor degree repeated to some extent resulting in another search for my inner truth.

I have been honest with my children from birth, I also was not thinking or considering any consequences and have no regrets. I have paid in many ways yet been rewarded in my heavenly chest with a treasure more precious than gold, the love shared with my lord and creator. The one thing I did with no doubt in my mind was the right thing to do. I believed that the one person they would be able to trust with absolute faith was their dad. Unfortunately I have a capacity to express some truths without tempering them and with a lack of tact. Even though I was being blunt out of love I should have had the capacity to stop before I spoke and looked in my heart.

Some kids need tough love and some kids need sensitive love, it is hard to at times know what a kid needs and at times they most likely need both. My son and step son even though I was honest with the whatever the question asked even the tough ones about drug use and my dark violent side before their time. My step son was very key in my ending of that demon and witnessed my last physically violent act. Both lied to me for years even though they knew I knew. Boys and girls are different both problems could be handled differently yet have an outcome less than what you expected resulting in many problems within ourselves. The expectations have been a source of doom resulting in a lesson learned and recently repeated.

The outcome for me and the most enlightening thing for me and perhaps for many is that it is our responsibility to share with our children spirituality in some form and teach them to share from the heart. From our adult hearts we know better and we know that the future is in our children. Teach from your heart and lead by example show your loving compassionate side and perhaps they will learn to pray so to speak from the heart and find their spiritual being in their younger years saving them from the fate of forty or so years of soul searching to find it under the piles of dark spirits of creation that they should have never had to create in the first place. Teaching them young gives them light in the troubled times of youth and childhood. One can always look within for love if one knows how and is taught at a young age to embrace the spirit.

It is my hope to change my career and somehow inspire and teach children the power of love and positive spiritual behavior. Perhaps a non-sugar coated loving and evolving soul can inspire positive change in a young persons life and help a beautiful soul along its path in love and the light of our Creator. The ultimate act of respect we can do as human beings is to respect ourselves and others enough make the change positive and become conscious and aware of what is in our souls and teach our children young to nurture their own.

Thank you for your time and I am grateful for all who have an effect on our world and everyone of us does. I hope we can all share a smile and some love helping make our world a better place for all that share it. Keep being the change positive and making our world a better place for all that share it. Thank you again.

Amazing to me how many Beautiful people there are in this world at this time.

It occurred to me as I read in my comments section a comment from a fellow writer here on Word Press.  I was truly touched as I began to realize that there have been a few comments and a few bloggers that had shared their thoughts from the heart and touched me in a profound way. I am both Humbled and grateful most of all thank you for sharing such a beautiful gift..

I am amazed at how many people are awake or awakening to their spiritual selves and the similar and coincidental paths traveled to get there. It is a pleasure to be surrounded with so many souls on so many paths sharing love through their words. Both Negative and positive contain growth and lead to the same place if you become aware spiritually whatever path leads you there. The one rule in the end is what you seek is inside you find you find it through love. The gift of truly knowing and loving yourself and your soul with the energy of our Makers loving light is the true gift.

I have up until October 2004 lived a spiritually neglected life, I would ask here and there when I hit a real rough patch which was almost rarely. I was a tough macho ass! Then real Darkness followed and for many years my soul waited as did the love that awaited me there. I had like Ebenezer Scrooge been haunted by ghosts, however they were my creation my sub conscious I suppose trying to tell me to wake up. Amazing how nature smacks us in the back of the head when we ignore the signals for extended periods of time. It takes time to find the true self after so many years of neglect and much work to actually start being able to feel the love of all loves.

I am grateful to be surrounded by so many beautiful souls making our world a better place for all no matter what race, creed, religion, science, no religion, heathen, no matter who you are or  if you find your inner truth I am honored to share with you. Thank you to so many I wish to say that there are some that inspire major changes so deep that you didn’t even realize the significance till they no longer talked to you. Their own demons I suppose, I wish to say a special thank you to my best friend and lover so far in life and my second most inspirational gift after the love of my lord. The path of destruction has lead me to a leap in spiritual growth through love and harmony. Losing the love I had made me want the love I need.

I hope that these thought shared will perhaps bring a smile, from a former Heathen I wish to once again thank you for allowing me to share I am grateful to be able to do so. I hope we can all share a smile and share some love being the change positive and making our world a better place for all we share it with.

I don’t know who said it or who is popular for saying it yet it is the one truth that should ring true to all of us.” What is your inner truth?” “ It all begins inside you!”  “ The answers lie within?” “ Love Heals all!”


Thank you be the Change Positive we owe it to ourselves and our fellow human beings.

A poem… My daughter angry with me

Venomous, spewing, vile fowl evil words meant to take revenge

The kinds of words that destroy the hearts of men

Tell me my Daughter what would you take from me

My love for you is unconditional as is your love for me

Your heart is not talking so I do not hear

That Beautiful young Lady that I love so dear

A reflection from the past shared in the light of my heart as I know that children can sometimes tempt our souls and hearts to turn dark. Especially with our children as we expect so much more from them. I have been learning that expectations are the road to doom… expect the unexpected and handle it as best as you can with love and grace. I obviously missed something when teaching my daughter to be respectful I missed the lesson of respecting myself. My children helped me grow and learn that the light comes from within.

Thank you for allowing me to share my thoughts and my choice to find the silver lining allowing me to learn and help my daughter learn as well. I hope we can all share a smile and some love, making positive change and helping make our world a better place for all that we share it with. Thank you again and be the change positive.

Intimate words of my destiny

I wish to share an intimate detail about myself. Words… Words have been one of my greatest lessons and one I have yet to master. I am however becoming more aware of the significance of them in my life as we all must at some point I would imagine.

Words have made me king

Words have destroyed my many kingdoms

Words have brought me love and taken it away

Words I have never uttered have made my world shutter

Words my blessing and my curse

Words I have learned are taken to heart

Words have to be shared from the heart

Words should never be rushed for they have the power to crush

Words have the strength to pick you up

Words thought in despair usually for me end in prayer

Words so beautiful and easy to abuse so dark yet exciting painful and enlightening

Words spoken are my demise or my gift from the great Divine

I own my thoughts and words, in the past words were sloppily chosen

I learned to choose them fast in silly battles of might only now to know I was not right

Words like time are my friend teaching me to live again

Words have destroyed and rebuilt my soul

Think long and hard before you speak your words can make you very weak

Words have made me, broke me, and almost choked me I am grateful for them and as jewels to all of us we should perhaps consider how we use and don’t use them affects us all in one way or another.

Thank you for allowing me to share some thoughts and words with you. Words are the most important part of my world without them I could not think for even thinking about thinking involves words. In my heartfelt prayers the light would be warm and comforting in its love yet I would have no words or thoughts to show appreciation or return the affection. I am grateful for the words and respectful of the power they have and the wisdom they share. Please share a smile and some love being the change positive and making our world a better place for all who share it with us. Thank you again.